It is fall in Upstate NY, probably our prettiest season. The other day, having read Scripture and meditated, I was driving to see a friend. I was remembering moments with my wife and children. What a congenial way to spend 45 minutes while traveling.
Then I had a gift. A remembered a person from my past who always pointed to what I did and suggested a “better way.” When I complained to him that I just never measured up to his impossible standards, he said, “As your teacher I want to both show my excitement in what you already know but also point you towards your next step. That is how teachers love their students.”
In my mind’s eye I saw him saying this and recalled thinking, “Hogwash, he just thinks I am an idiot.” And now 55 years later I realized I was still though he thought I wan an idiot.
Then it clicked. He was right. He saw what I could master and wanted that for me. He never intended to say that I was not good enough. He was sincerely saying, “Well done! and there is even more great stuff out their to master!!!” I experienced a moment of healing I did not even know I yearned for.
In the poem “To a Louse” Robert Burns wrote:
O wad some Pow’r the giftie gie us
To see oursels as ithers see us!
For those who don’t speak old Scot dialect and to complete Burn’s thought,
And would some Power give us the gift
To see ourselves as others see us!
It would from many a blunder free us,
And foolish notion:
What airs in dress and gait would leave us,
And even devotion!
In meditation we “borrow” God’s eyes to see life if we are willing to ask then listen.